I love trading, even though I am a rookie and have been consistently losing on contracts. The single coins I purchased have never yielded particularly satisfying results, like those quick news updates, but that doesn't stop my passion for trading. It's the only thing I continue to persist with despite ongoing losses and no big breakthroughs. Maybe I'm not a trader; I’m more like a gambler. I’ve noticed that many excellent traders mention loss thresholds. I think having a low loss threshold is a good thing—I need to learn and improve myself. However, I haven't found the right way because I am not strict enough with myself. When I experience significant losses, I do feel physiological discomfort, such as long-lasting eczema, insomnia, scalp discomfort, and excessive oil production. But I quickly offset these feelings with good food, beautiful scenery, or family. Even simple activities like tidying up or decluttering help me recover from this pain. These seem to be subconscious actions I naturally do. I’ve tried immersing myself in this state of painful losses, but I can't sustain it. Perhaps this is the inner demon that prevents me from becoming a trader: I am too good at forgiving myself and too quick to let go of pain.